War... Then Peace... Not...
15.12.2009||xx||10:35 pm
is there really peace within me now? i'm not sure... is the peace there because it's the peace that the Prince of God gave me? or is the peace there because i'm just suppressing my feelings?
somehow i feel that there is war within war... and perhaps to a certain extent i'm afraid to be strong for myself... what will be the consequences? perhaps God had already worked a lot in her life, like what others had said. but somehow i don't feel it. maybe it's very hard for me to feel it because i'm so new... and i guess it's especially hard for non-believer to feel it too. if any of you happen to chance upon my blog because you saw this address because of my msn profile, just know that i'm ventilating, and i'll be fine one day. when will that day come i will not know. perhaps until the day another person come along to take over. which ironically i don't know when as well...